Heartbreaking!

So Monday night was a rough night followed by Tuesday, which was even worse!  Monday evening Boston started coughing a bit and had some extra boogers, it slowly became more and more difficult for her to breath and by 4am had reached the point of where if she wasn't being suctioned she wasn't really breathing.  First thing Tuesday morning I took her in to her pediatrician who said it sounded like RSV and that we would have need to watch her carefully and do some deep suction.  However once I mentioned she had a fever earlier that morning but that it had gone down with Tylenol he said we needed to get her to the hospital and do some tests.  Apparently it is very dangerous for infants under 2 months to have fevers, especially with difficulty breathing issues.  So I took her over to Timpanogos Hospital (now that we have stupid insurance that won't let us go to Intermountain Healthcare facilities) after dropping Brooklynn and Brynlee at my Mom's.  This whole time I am running through every horrible scenario in my head.  It's funny how I can see all kinds of sick kids in the ER and deal with it but when it's your own all common sense and reason go out the window and hysteria sets in.  After checking in the nurses informed me that they would be drawing blood, using a straight catheter to collect a urine sample and doing some deep suction to clear her airway and collect a sample for RSV testing.  All the while I am having a hard time not focusing all my attention on the cage looking crib in the corner of the room and thinking to myself "No way are they getting me to put my baby in that!"

When they were getting ready to start taking the samples the nurses asked if I wanted to leave the room and I kindly replied that I would rather stay with Boston however in my head I'm screaming "You are crazy if you think I'm going to abandon my child while you traumatize her!"  And yes I am aware that she won't remember any of this since she is after all just an infant but that's the rational me-remember what I said about common sense and hysteria!  Well it took forever but they were finally able to start an IV-heartbreaking, the catheter was the nurses first ever on an infant-terrifying, and the suction was surprisingly relieving since I knew it would give her the quickest relief.  Now it was time to settle in and wait for results.  Once everyone left her alone and she could breath Boston was able to fall asleep and catch up on the rest she had been deprived due to the difficulty breathing.

When the doctor came in for rounds he said that her urine was clean, her labs appear to be viral .  He also said that we could go home since she had been able to breath better with continued suction and her fever had not re-presented for them to document.  But that if her fever came back she would need to be re-admitted and have a spinal tap.  So we're home now and no fever yet, we should get the RSV result tonight and her blood culture results should be in tomorrow night and hopefully give us a better idea of what's going on with out sweet little Boston.  I must say I'm a lot more calm about the whole thing now that we're home, it was stressing me out to be in the hospital with all the other sick kids.  So I will keep everyone posted and hopefully there won't be much to report.

Here are some heartbreaking pictures I snapped before we left.